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I went through my tubs of stained glass yesterday and matched up stained glass colors with individual mirrors. Then I set all the stained glass containers to the side and now I can work my way through doing the individual mirrors.

Jules, Noah and Sebastian posing for a picture with Sebastian's new motorcycle as they were getting ready to leave after dinner last night. He picked it up on Saturday. I like that orange and black look.

Rainy early this morning in her hallway closet hidey hole. She is very easy to overlook when she's in there. I liked how her ear was standing up so big.

A free day today. I hope to get lots done in the goat shed with gluing glass down on the mirrors.

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"I am not what happened to me,
I am what I choose to become".
- Carl Jung

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I dreamed I was outside a library. Something to do with artifacts buried near the foundation. I was one of many people digging them up. They were small rounded stones with inscriptions carved in them. I wanted to get a picture of them but I couldn't get my cellphone camera to work right. It kept taking pictures that were all distorted with added elements that weren't really there and garish colors. I heard that Barack Obama was coming to the library for a visit. For some reason I knew he'd know what to adjust in my phone to get my camera back to a normal camera. Without me going up to him, he approached me and introduced himself so I asked him if he could help. He was very gracious and went into the settings of the phone and fixed it for me. As he was leaving he was tired and stopped to lean his forehead against the wall of the library for a moment, like he was communing with it.

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I like how the prayer flags in front of the goat shed are weathering. I was over there early this morning looking for my tea mug. I misplace it at least once a day it seems. I checked the goat shed just in case it was there. It wasn't. It was in my car. I hadn't taken it out yesterday when I got back from the paint and sip.

I had a struggle dream last night. I can't remember all the preceding parts of the dream now but I was with some other people. David Z was one of them. We had traveled a distance to go to a house that I owned to look for a big mixing bowl. Someone in David's family needed the mixing bowl to stir up red dye to dye their shoes for a special occasion like a wedding. I did find the bowl for them and told them to go on ahead but I wanted to go back to the house to make sure the door was locked. I went back and checked - it was locked - but when I turned around to follow them they were totally gone. I was making my way across the front yard, a field with lots of junk and many obstacles, little board bridges that needed crossed over deep holes. I ended up falling into the underworld. I wasn't hurt but I didn't see any way to get back out. I doubted that they would return for me because to them I was viewed as a healthy strong person who wouldn't need help. I suppose this has to do with the heart issue. Even though it seemed like a "bad" dream I'm glad I had it. Somehow it makes me more connected to myself and that feels hopeful.

Today: OA, and then clean house. I hope I have time to finish putting ceramic and fimo clay elements on the last 4 mirror frames today. I want to move onto the next step as soon as possible. I'd like to be done gluing stuff down by the middle of Sept when I leave for Florida.

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Looking out the kitchen window as the sun was going down tonight.

Jan and I went to Chloe's Paint and Sip today after walking the bike trail by the river in Oil City. I had a couple episodes of the slow heart rate thing happen while walking. The painting that Chloe had for us to do today was a barn with pumpkins beside it but I got carried away with the drawing of the barn and never got around to any painting. "Rhythm". I've been thinking lately of how I'd like to illustrate my heart issue and in my mind I see a long tube with bumps passing along it. So I just drew that coming out of the barn. :-)

I had a neat dream this morning. Dave and I were in a house behind mom and dad's house, in the spot where I used to have a little trailer. There were some other people there but I don't know who they were. Dave pointed out the window and said, "look". I saw just the tail end of a dragon flying through the sky. I was going to the door to look out so I could see better when Hazel popped out to scare me (she likes to do that to get a laugh from me). She threw a snake skin at me. It was patterned like Indian corn and the scales were orange, purple, brown and blue kernels. It was beautiful. I took the skin and continued out the door and looked at the sky. There were many tetradactyl type birds flying in the sky, around in circles the way buzzards do. It seemed like a very special thing to see.

I've had other dreams that this reminded me of. Dreams where there were strange and awesome things in the sky. Constellations of stars in shapes that we have never seen before. The feeling is the same. There is something special coming.

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My Happy Place right now. I only have 4 left to put ceramic decorative elements on. Then I will open up the tubs of stained glass and fill them in with that. It was starting to get dark and I was quitting for the day when I took this pic.

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At the creek, another two chairs that Dave and I like to sit on. They believe in "lean on me" too.

Today was the first time I have climbed the hill from walking down to the creek when I didn't have my heart act up. Usually as I climb the hill my heart rate goes down instead of up - weird - which makes me feel very shaky and light headed. But today, now that I have the heart monitor attached to my chest it didn't happen. Figures - makes me look like a liar just wanting attention. But I did start the new med last night and cut back on the metoprolol so maybe that's it. That would be great if it was the end of this worrisome issue.

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I took this pic today for my sister

motherofearth45 so she could see how big the mirror mosaics are going to be. She thought they would be much bigger. No, just small. I got another 20 wooden frames today and plan to make 40 in all now. I am very into thinking up different combinations of decorative elements to go with colors of stained glass tessera. I want to do as many as I have concepts for. I have no idea what I will do with them all but so what? They will exist. And they'll eventually find homes I'm sure.

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My heart rate is ridiculously variable as the day goes on, and my blood pressure too. But when I was at the doctor's yesterday it didn't do any of it's low heart rate stuff (of course) so she ordered me a heart monitor which I'm going to get tomorrow. I'll wear it for a week and then they can make better decisions about what's going on. She did change my meds a bit so I will be getting less metoprolol now and she added a new med (losartan) for high blood pressure instead. I canceled volunteering at the nursing home today cuz I just didn't want to worry about some weird heart thing happening while I was there. So now I have a free day, which is nice. Heading over to the goat shed to work on mosaic after I post this.

Yesterday. This is a picture of spider web attachments on the window sill in the shed. I had thoroughly brushed all the webs away when I cleaned in there (didn't kill the spiders though) so these webs are all fresh. I thought it was interesting how the spiders had reinforced the webs where they attached them to the sill. At first I couldn't see the webs (too delicate) and all I saw were the thicker spiky attachments and wondered what they were.

For the top two I decided to use some of the fimo beads I made years ago. I have SO MANY fimo beads still and I think they'll make nice borders around the mirrors.

This is down back where Dave and I like to sit. Two chairs supporting each other.

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I haven't written here or even been in my room to sit in front of my computer since Wednesday it seems. My heart has been acting up. I was getting out of breath and light headed just from climbing up the hill from down back, climbing the stairs from the basement, or doing housework; and having tightness in my chest. On Friday I started to take note of my blood pressure and noticed that the BP was good but my pulse rate was very low - under 50 a lot of the time. On Saturday evening I called the doctor on call and she said to hold my metoprolol and see and if that helped. So I did and it did seem to help the heart rate but now, this morning my BP is up. I need to find out if I should change the dosage or what. Waiting for the call back from the doctor. Passing time waiting, and I remembered - oh - I could look at the pictures in my phone I took last week and write something. So here's Wednesday's pictures of scenery downback (boring stuff you have seen many times before), Friday's progress on mosaics and the new eye glasses I ordered and should get in a couple weeks: ( Read more... )

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Okay - got my call back. I have an appointment now to see the PA at 2...

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Last evening we went to the Reno playground to hear Chloe's boyfriend Jimmy perform. It's pretty neat that a tiny town like Reno is putting together fortnightly performances of folk singers in the summer months. He did a lot of John Prine songs and a song that I particularly like from the movie, Inside Llewyn Davis (Hang Me Oh Hang Me). I saw a guy who I went to school with sitting in the audience and afterwards went over to say hi. It turned out that his son was one of the people who got the event together.

I learned a lot about running the gift shop at the nursing home yesterday. I was there from 11 till 3. It's a whole complicated thing to run the shop but things are pretty laid back. It can get busy as a little store that has lots of things in it. Patients, the nursing home staff and even people from the community come in to shop. Low prices on everything - they don't make a profit. It's not a good thing to talk politics but I was sensing that the lady training me is also not enamored with how things are going politically right now. So it was nice to come across a like minded person. I work with her again next Tuesday. I will be in charge for the whole day (10 to 3) and she will supervise me.

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Today's work. This will look way better after it's grouted.

Still watching Touched By An Angel. It's worth it just to hear Della Reese sing, and Roma Downey's accent.

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