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It just started raining. The weather has changed to being chilly now. I'll need to take my umbrella when I go to the shed.

"I am not what happened to me,
I am what I choose to become".
- Carl Jung

I like how the prayer flags in front of the goat shed are weathering. I was over there early this morning looking for my tea mug. I misplace it at least once a day it seems. I checked the goat shed just in case it was there. It wasn't. It was in my car. I hadn't taken it out yesterday when I got back from the paint and sip.

I had a struggle dream last night. I can't remember all the preceding parts of the dream now but I was with some other people. David Z was one of them. We had traveled a distance to go to a house that I owned to look for a big mixing bowl. Someone in David's family needed the mixing bowl to stir up red dye to dye their shoes for a special occasion like a wedding. I did find the bowl for them and told them to go on ahead but I wanted to go back to the house to make sure the door was locked. I went back and checked - it was locked - but when I turned around to follow them they were totally gone. I was making my way across the front yard, a field with lots of junk and many obstacles, little board bridges that needed crossed over deep holes. I ended up falling into the underworld. I wasn't hurt but I didn't see any way to get back out. I doubted that they would return for me because to them I was viewed as a healthy strong person who wouldn't need help. I suppose this has to do with the heart issue. Even though it seemed like a "bad" dream I'm glad I had it. Somehow it makes me more connected to myself and that feels hopeful.

Today: OA, and then clean house. I hope I have time to finish putting ceramic and fimo clay elements on the last 4 mirror frames today. I want to move onto the next step as soon as possible. I'd like to be done gluing stuff down by the middle of Sept when I leave for Florida.

My Happy Place right now. I only have 4 left to put ceramic decorative elements on. Then I will open up the tubs of stained glass and fill them in with that. It was starting to get dark and I was quitting for the day when I took this pic.

My heart rate is ridiculously variable as the day goes on, and my blood pressure too. But when I was at the doctor's yesterday it didn't do any of it's low heart rate stuff (of course) so she ordered me a heart monitor which I'm going to get tomorrow. I'll wear it for a week and then they can make better decisions about what's going on. She did change my meds a bit so I will be getting less metoprolol now and she added a new med (losartan) for high blood pressure instead. I canceled volunteering at the nursing home today cuz I just didn't want to worry about some weird heart thing happening while I was there. So now I have a free day, which is nice. Heading over to the goat shed to work on mosaic after I post this.


Yesterday. This is a picture of spider web attachments on the window sill in the shed. I had thoroughly brushed all the webs away when I cleaned in there (didn't kill the spiders though) so these webs are all fresh.  I thought it was interesting how the spiders had reinforced the webs where they attached them to the sill. At first I couldn't see the webs (too delicate) and all I saw were the thicker spiky attachments and wondered what they were.


For the top two I decided to use some of the fimo beads I made years ago. I have SO MANY fimo beads still and I think they'll make nice borders around the mirrors.


This is down back where Dave and I like to sit. Two chairs supporting each other.

Last evening we went to the Reno playground to hear Chloe's boyfriend Jimmy perform. It's pretty neat that a tiny town like Reno is putting together fortnightly performances of folk singers in the summer months. He did a lot of John Prine songs and a song that I particularly like from the movie, Inside Llewyn Davis (Hang Me Oh Hang Me). I saw a guy who I went to school with sitting in the audience and afterwards went over to say hi. It turned out that his son was one of the people who got the event together.

I learned a lot about running the gift shop at the nursing home yesterday. I was there from 11 till 3. It's a whole complicated thing to run the shop but things are pretty laid back. It can get busy as a little store that has lots of things in it. Patients, the nursing home staff and even people from the community come in to shop. Low prices on everything - they don't make a profit. It's not a good thing to talk politics but I was sensing that the lady training me is also not enamored with how things are going politically right now. So it was nice to come across a like minded person. I work with her again next Tuesday. I will be in charge for the whole day (10 to 3) and she will supervise me.